anyway, it’s actually really weird when you come out of a bad or fucked up friendship with a weird power differential/dynamic and in hindsight start to see all of the tiny transgressions you let go or looked over every time the person showed you they actually did not give two craps about your feelings or were using something about you for their image
have you ever considered that we lead ourselves on? we overthink everything; every touch, every look, every text. we create scenarios in our minds and imagine ourselves with that person, building it into something it isn’t, something it never was. maybe we need to stop passing the blame, maybe we break our own hearts.